Airheads and Caffeine.

Too much sugar and caffeine. Oops.

This is one of those nights that I know I should just sleep, but my mind’s just too occupied with thoughts and I don’t have someone to talk to (since my roomies are sleeping already) so… hello blog. I missed you. I missed writing like this.

I tried to make a little story about an hour ago and I didn’t finish it. I need more inspiration to do it and as of now, all I have is unsorted thoughts. Thoughts that will surely stay on my mind (still unsorted and hard to explain) because I really won’t write them all down here in my blog. Its just not appropriate for me to do it now even though I used to do it a lot before. Well, i have changed. All of us change. Decisions, feelings, point of views — they all change. Hence, we describe change as the only constant thing in this world and that it is the biggest room in the universe. I changed a lot ever since I got pulled out from my comfort zone. I did things I never knew I could, faced my biggest fears, did decisions that made my life turn around 360 degrees and I’m kind of (still) spinning at the moment, finally followed my heart and yes, I really feel better now. I feel so happy and thankful that this all happened in my life. Its because I took risks, I believed in being able to get what I want, fell down, got hurt, but dusted it off and got back up again. I was also that girl who used to be scared of showing her feelings because it might just ruin everything, but I screwed that ‘holding back’ stuff and just let it all out. As one of my favorite quotes say, “You’ll never know if you never try.” I have changed a lot. Not all of it made me a better person but at least a lot of it made me who I am now. Happy, thankful and aims to achieve more. I’ve got a long way to go and I’m not wasting any minute thinking about what ifs. I am so on for the next challenge/adventure in my life.

Oh dear friends, Don’t hold back. BELIEVE. Have faith. Que sera, sera.

I hope sleep comes to me soon.

Izelle