This is the first time after 5 years that I didn’t do a year-ender blog (on-time, like dec. 31st). But as the title of this blog says, its not too late for a year-ender blog. Its been just three days since we all left 2011. Duh. Everything’s still fresh on my mind. Lol.
So let me start by saying how AMAZING and AWESOME my 2011 was. It was just so great that I never wanted it to end. I had lots of accomplishments last 2011 and when I look back, i couldn’t explain how happy and fulfilled I am for achieving those goals of mine. Some of those was that I finished On-the-job training at one of the best hotels in the Philippines, got a High Pass (like A+) for my undergraduate thesis, got my U.S Visa, graduated College (YEEEEESSSS!), flew all the way to America 2 days after graduation with two of my best girlfriends, overcame fears like: living independently, being far away from home, from Server Assistant to Runner to Hostess to Server in just 3 months of being at work, did good in my first-ever real world job. I also met a lot of amazing people, people who inspired me to do the best I can in my job. People who I now look up to. Brave, strong people that has encountered a lot in life and makes me feel like I could do anything because if they can, I sure can do it too. People I don’t ever wanna lose in my life. People who will make me sad when I leave this place. People who will make me want to come back asap here in america. But… there are also a bunch of pricks and jerks I have to deal with. I still thank them because they made me a stronger person. They made me realize that its a dangerous world and that I have to watch out for people like them.
See, I’ve never expected these to happen so fast in my life. I mean, I just graduated college and now I am in the land of flowing soda and chocolate, which was my dream when I was a kid. Never thought I could have my feet in the American soil as early as 20. Now I am thinking, I STILL HAVE A LOT TO GO. I have a lot of things that I want to accomplish. And I am not stopping until I achieve all those. I only have 3 things unchecked on the goal list that I wrote when I was in 3rd year college, but I am gonna add more to that. So that I can keep on achieving. I love being able to achieve things. it gives me this feeling — this satisfying feeling and idea that whatever I wanna get, I could get — if I try. If not, then I’m gonna try harder. If not, then try again. In short, I am not someone who easily gives up. I may look like I am about to give up, but trust me, I just say it in words/my face just shows it, but I am never gonna stop. Not until of course, all the forces of the universe doesn’t really agree with me.
2011 taught me a lot of things too. I could not even write them all down in this blog because its gonna take me days to finish typing it all up. 2011 gave me a big slap in the face, an uppercut punch, lots of bruises and scars (physically and emotionally), a twisted mind, horrible heart attack and a big black hole in my chest. But all these things combined, I could not explain how thankful I am that all of these horrible things happened in my life. Because without those, I would never know what life is really all about. Its about getting hurt, recovering and finding happiness, its about acceptance, its about letting things go, its about having reality checks once in a while, its about embracing what you have now instead of worrying about what could be, its about cherishing moments and catching opportunities and just grabbing what you can and hold on to it while it lasts, its about knowing who you should trust and who you should stay away from, its about sharing moments with people, no matter how long that moment may be, its about putting yourself back together when you know you’re falling apart, its about doing things your own way, standing up for yourself and what you believe in and a whole lot more.
I can’t say how happy I am about how my 2011 turned out. Its pretty awesome. Oh, no.. it is actually AWESOME. Every year I get older, not just in age but also mentally. Every year I notice that I am having a different perspective about life, and its getting better. I am starting to experience how “living” actually is.
2012, I know you have a lot in store for me. I dare you to bring it on.
Oh by the way, I saw a rainbow 2 days ago which was the first day of the year, and its the first time I saw it from end to end. It must’ve been God’s way of telling me “Hey, don’t hate 2012, you haven’t seen anything yet. And if you loved 2011, you will love 2012 too.” Rainbow means “good luck” and “hope”. That means more trying and not giving up because there’s always that little spark of hope.
2012 is kind of exciting. Its time to be able to apply all the learnings from 2011. I also have to remind myself to try not to do the same mistakes from last year. Yiiip!
Geared up and ready to face 2012,
Izelle
